So tired of doctors………..can’t live without them

Today has just not been the best one. Another round of “procedures” are being scheduled on my back, another round of sedation, another healing period, another pain. All in the vain hopes of having some remedy to my most excoriating tortures. The medicine is to make us better, we know that. But on some subconscious level we also know that it doesn’t always do that. I know that people are not supposed to be in pain all their days. For that simple fact, there must be some relief somewhere to be had. I just don’t know where. So as they tell me the swelling in my feet (and my legs, that I didn’t even realize were swollen until today) is my veins not pumping the fluid up and out properly. So here comes another specialist, another appointment, compression socks, another chance to find out what might be wrong with me. But probably not. And another “procedure” to try to make both my hips work the same, both my feet lift as far as they should, and straighten my gait, when has long ago started leaning to the right to take pressure of the pain in my spine/hip/backside. With every passing day it makes me wonder, is the medicine helping? Or is it making it all worse. How am I to know? How are any of us?


About lindasue1979

I am studying to be a psychologist in the hopes of becoming a therapist treating PTSD patients as an alternative to pharmaceuticals. I am also a sufferer of PTSD and Generalized Anxiety. But most of all, I am Mom to be amazing nephew. I love life and all things in it. Love to try new products and loveeeeeeeeee to give my opinion, even when not asked!

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